a lot can happen in …
A year, a month, an hour, a minute, seconds, mili seconds; and has the power to transform us, break us, heal us, and shape us in ways we might never have imagined.
2024 was a year that taught me about resilience and the fragility of human connections. There were moments when I questioned my worth and wondered if I brought misfortune to those around me. It felt as though every step I took pushed people further away. I mean, I went to a place where I thought I would find solace and peace but my bad vibes literally sent the people there away.
I faced rejection and failure in many ways. Was it when I failed a writing test twice or when I failed all the interviews I was invited for. The dissappointments, the traumas, the having to pick myself up countless of times because who would do that for me if I don’t. The loneliness, the deceit, the lies, the dishonesty. The constant struggle for validation and not getting any.
Of all the problems one year could cause, the hardest was understanding the flow of friendships and relationships. People come into our lives for reasons we may not always understand, and sometimes, they leave just as mysteriously. And worse, they might all leave at the same time and never returned.
I missed a lot of people but when I met them after a while, I realised that I missed them, they didn’t. Or was it when I thought someone actually cared about me just to realise they were a pure fraud. The list of failed friendships are endless, making me realise that I am at fault cause there is absolutely no way one person would always be unfortunate in a particular stuff. No way.
Looking Ahead
At the end, anything can happen at any time. I had few good moments after all. I solo travelled and that was it. Maybe I fought for my life every day and maybe I will keep fighting until I die, who knows?
But I do know, a lot can happen in a …
Tchelber. Writes
